Ya ever do something thinkin "Hey this is a win win situation for both the other party and myself" then the whole thing just falls to pieces least for you on your end? Yeah I did that. I kinda don't know how to handle it. I want her to still have a good time, but I hate wasting my money and my time on a fruitless venture. Also I feel like such a asshole for feeling this way. Am I really that selfish? That pathetic? I mean I'm lonely but damn.... She's not innocent on her end though. She helped to build up this trip that I paid for for her. She helped build it up to something that wasn't going to happen. Guess I'm still a little naive. All she can say is "I'm sorry" and all I can respond with is ".... Story of my life.."